My heart is full....

Sometimes I feel a lot like Job, the man in scripture who had such a tough time of testing.  I get so bogged down by circumstances and my bad choices, and I beat myself up for them daily.  I feel tempted to withdraw and quit trying.  Then I have a drive to work like I did this morning.....

This has been a tough week and as I drove in to work I took out an old CD.  On it is a modern version of, "When I Survey the Wondrous Cross".  I love this version and used to sing it in churches with a friend when I was in college.  There is a section of the song when the singer repeats, "Holy, holy, holy.....is the Lamb".  As I listened and saw the sun rising ahead of me, the connections started to happen.

You see, for my devotions (starting in August), I have simply been reading the Bible - no extra study books or devotional guides - just the Scriptures.  The Lord led me to do this and I am so thankful.  When you have been reading verses here and there, doing different study books, hearing stories at church all your life, you can forget to simply read the Bible from cover to cover.  When you do, you won't be the same.  I see now how little I really do know about God, but how there is infinitely more to know and experience.  In fact, it boggles my mind that He even has time for me.  Yet, He does and He loves me.

So what's the connection that I made?  It is simply, and wonderfully, that everything is about Him.  It's not about me, my failings, my needs....although He delights in meeting them.  It's all about Him....and this morning I got just a little glimpse of that......and it took my breath away.